Tuesday, August 16, 2011
I must blog because I need to stay on track. This is a day that needs a label because this kind of day happens occasionally. These days are lethargy, uninspiring, just getting by days. These days are those that can lead me off track. These are days where I tell myself not to care but instead to feed my desires with stuff, eat what I want, somehow searching for comfort. But it is days like these that can take me off my path and send me on a long detour. I want to get through the rest of this day without letting the mood lead me astray. How to do that? To write this blog helps me analyze what is going on and keeps me mindful. I need to rise out of this and look down on myself and offer a helping hand. Tell myself that this day will pass. Tomorrow will be better. Get through this day and start anew. Don't expect anything today but at the very least, don't make things worse. Don't put food in your mouth unless you are hungry. You only have about 5 hours to make it through until you can get in bed and relax. So take one hour at a time. Pat yourself on the back each hour that you get through without eating mindlessly. Good luck!
Saturday, August 13, 2011
When it comes to eating right, the advice is full of what to eat, when to eat, where to eat. The why, the who. That is also explored.
But let's explore that some more. The why is really all about sustenance, and beyond that, enjoyment. Not hedonism, not addiction, not gluttony. So how to achieve that goal of eating for health and enjoyment? AWARENESS and RESPECT. Susan Albers book, Eat, Drink, and Be Mindful delivers a key to it all. "Awareness, or tuning in to yourself, teaches you to identify what IS good for you rather than what FEELS good. I actually believe that if we are tuned in fully, we even can identify that what is good for us, also feels good, in fact, feels better. So today as I approach a weekend of birthday celebration and feasting, I will try to be more mindful. I will try to practice "mindful awareness". And in the process, showing myself some respect.
Friday, August 12, 2011
Must blog every day if I can. But today I failed to work out since I got up at 8:30 and am now at 9 pm finishing my day. Was out all day and in traffic for most of it. So the priority of working out was shadowed by sleeping in. I had thought we would get home 2 hours earlier but because of traffic coming back from SFO, I miscalculated. that is my poor excuse. I could have gotten up a half hour earlier and got on the bike. Or I could get on the bike now. But let's face it. Right now that is too out of the bell curve. So to fit in a workout isn't normal for me right now and I might not be able to maintain that habit over the long run. But what IS normal is to then reduce my calorie intake to make up for that. And THAT I did. So I will proclaim this day as a success.
Tomorrow, I hope that my personal priority will include moving more as well as eating less and eating better. But for today, 2 out of 3 ain't bad.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
My recent photo for my "Pat on the Back" post turns out to appear more like a dog humping another dog, according to my daughter. So I looked again. OK. That could be. Can't trust google images. Or at least they have a good sense of humor. So my blog theme of the day is PERSPECTIVE. How we perceive ourselves and others. This is huge. I was talking with Debra today about how we perceive ourselves and that when some of us lose our 30 pounds, or whatever, that it somehow then becomes not good enough. Also reminds me of my Dad's friend who made his first million. And now what? The man said, "now I want another million."
Well, I think this may be human nature, but not a good side of that. I want to work on my goal of losing weight, and when I get there, I want to feel it is good enough. If I choose to lose more, that would fall in the bonus category, not the MUST HAVE.
I say my goal is to eat less, eat better, and move more. I will now add, "when I reach my goal, I will take time to enjoy that."
Eat less, eat better, move more, enjoy the results.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Some entries will be short because, after all, I am using this forum as my way to behave better, not impress anyone. So I can report to you that I rode the bike for 20 minutes. If I didn't have this blog, I would NOT have made that a priority. Instead I would have gone to the computer and responded to emails that could have waited until tomorrow. See? This is a major shift in personal priorities. So this is a pat on the back to myself.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
As I begin to focus on my new priority to eat less, eat better, and move more, I find some stumbling blocks in the way. Yesterday I came home from the grocery store and I had the hardest time getting myself to ride the exercise bike for 20 minutes. But I did it because I knew I had this blog to write. I am using this as my way of keeping myself honest and motivating me. In the old days, I was motivated to be thin because I wanted to look good for the guys. I still care about that but I am now a married lady. So where can I find the motivation? I have to deal with this paradigm shift of being older and married. What is my new motivation? Just being healthy and fit sure sounds good but doesn't really knock you over with excitement. So I have an idea. I want to look good as I get older so my friends from my past will say, "hey, you look good!" THAT is the motivation I want. I want to hear people I meet to tell me how good I look. That began to happen over a year ago after I lost 20 pounds.
I remember my beautiful friend, Annie, who came to visit me twice in the last few years. She is taller than I am and wears a size 8. When she walks in the room or down the street, I see the eyes turn in her direction. I feel proud to be by her side and I feel sorry that I can't command that attention. But if I lost these 30 pounds, I could gain more eyeballs. I may never have as many as Annie, since she also carries herself a bit like Marilyn Monroe, but I will at least be a contender.
Monday, August 8, 2011
Tried to find a template design but the choices were limited and I was too frustrated to keep trying. Since I love maps and travel, I picked this, a perfect metaphor for this 'way too overused' word selection of a "journey" to begin my weight loss effort. But that is what it is. It IS a journey. And one has to be a journeyman to be successful at losing weight. A journeyman is a "worker who is reliable but not outstanding." I want to eat better and eat less and move more. Nothing outstanding. No marathons or mountains to climb. My personal marathon and personal mountain is my attention to the goal of eating better, eating less, and moving more. I want to be reliable as someone you can depend on to do this. I want to reliably eat healthy. I chose this photo of a vineyard worker because they dutifully perform again and again without complaint, and they are journeymen. To me this is admirable, and I want to apply that attitude to help me reach my goal.
I must make this a personal priority, hence the name of the blog.
I started a blog as a strategy for helping myself stick to my goal of weight loss.
It happens to be my daughter's 17th birthday, a great day to begin making my weight loss a priority since I want to be around a long time for my children, I want to make my family proud of me, and I want to regain some of that youthfulness that makes me more happy. I want to be proud of myself. I want to feel in control. Debra got me back on that scale and told me,"see, now you are in control of that number. It doesn't control you."
So now begins my work, slow and steady, reliable and nothing outstanding. But it seems hard right now. I will try to learn to embrace and accept better habits and hope they will become more standard and less foreign. I wish myself luck.